Tuesday, May 20, 2008

He's speaking to me again...

It happens, you know. The Lord talks to us. You just have to be quiet and listen, unwilling to push aside that little voice that calls out to you.

The other day I was putting black oak tag in Little Monster's window to keep the light out --so that he will nap, and so that he will go to bed on time. As I was doing this, I noticed that no matter how hard I tried to keep out the light, it still found places to sneak in. That light is just like our Lord. No matter how hard I try to keep Him out, no matter how much I try to ignore what He is telling me, that light keeps peeking its way back in. It reminds me that there is hope. Because no matter how dark our world gets, no matter how much we try to keep Him out of everything (including Church these days), He's still there, peeking in. It's easier to get rid of the dark. You turn on a light, light a match or a candle.. But, have you ever tried to keep out the light? It's much harder. It isn't always easy, to fend off the dark, but it is easier if you keep His light with you.

Some days, especially these past few have been difficult. It isn't easy staying at home with a toddler, when I'm used to being out in the world, earning money and contributing to the household. So often, I forget that my contribution to our household doesn't always have to be in dollars and cents. My contribution is in the things I do every day. I still, though, feel like I'm not contributing enough to our world. I need to do more.

I have been praying for help, places for me to contribute. Today, it seems, no matter where I turn, there is a message. I have been involved with a local bible study, and have been praying to be a help where I can. I talked to someone today, and the thing they need help with, I can do. I am good with computers, and they need someone to help with that.

Our speaker today talked about Proverbs 31:10-31. The virtuous woman. Sure, this woman seems to have it all together, but she is only able to do all the things she does because she trusts in the Lord. Then, I come home, and I open my Email, and found this. I have been reading that blog for a while, and have read some good things, but today the message seemed to SHOUT something to me. The same message I got today from the speaker. Thank you.

Then, I opened up my Google Reader, and read this. Another blog I read often, and her message today seemed to SHOUT to me. You see, I have been afraid to post about the spiritual turmoil going on within me. I have been afraid people will be turned off and quit reading, running away. After reading that blog, I realized that perhaps I shouldn't worry about those who WOULD be turned off, and maybe worry about that one person, who needs to hear the message I am being asked to send out.

So, today, Lord. Thank you for this. Thank You for shouting at me when I don't want to listen. I know it is because You love me. Because You love all of us, and in the end, you want us all to be with You.

8 comments:

Elisabeth said...

Thank you.

debawriter said...

Good for you. Please post about the stuff that moves you most. That's eminently readable,

And? Beautiful post.

From another spiritual searcher,
Deb
sandiegomomma.com

Knick Knack Paddy Whack, Throw This Mom a Bone said...

Good listening Mar....

Vanessa said...

I'll keep reading, and really, don't worry about losing readers.. if your spiritual posts turn people off, then so be it. It is YOUR blog. :)

T&W said...

I've been reading alot of blogs as of late. Most of which really upset me. This blog was so refreshing. We (christains) need not be afraid to express our feelings. Hold your head up girl!!

jennifer said...

Good for you!

Rebecca said...

aMEN!

shawna said...

I think that this is a message that I was meant to read today. I am pretty new in my walk with Christ. I mean, I've frequently been to church, but haven't be quite committed, maybe invested would be a better word.
Thanks for posting this.